"I love you Beth Cooper" makes me introspective?

Just so you know, I probably won't have many posts like this.

You know, watching movies like "I love you Beth Cooper" and other high school movies just makes me reflect on my life. It's not exactly the type of movie you'd normally think would make you reflect on your own life, but I've been pretty retrospective and introspective these days. My highschool years were pretty... bleak. I was painfully shy and was picked on quite a bit until my last couple of years there. My last couple of years were alright; I had a group of good friends, I came out of my shell through sheer will, and I started playing around with makeup and hairstyles (finally). I started to find out who I was, what I liked about myself rather than what I just didn't like about myself. I started to find things in the world that I enjoyed, people that I liked to have in my life, people that I just couldn't stand to have in my life, and I just... stopped needing to please everyone around me.

Then came Uni. I went into dorms and had to force myself to make friends. I'm in my second year now (well, just finished it), and I'm still friends with some of those people. Some friends I fell out with, after finding out they were just using me. I've made a couple of other friends through my friends, though I still have a complex about how many friends I have. When I hang out with some people that I really want to be better friends with, I try really hard not to be boring, or I'm really worried through the hangout that I might be boring them. I'm trying really hard to break out of that habit, because I'm really proud of who I've become, even though I still have some improving to do. I got to meet the love of my life, my boyfriend (who I asked out! Can you believe it?),  who I plan to stay with for the rest of my life, so I count that as a plus! He was the man who helped me become who I am today. He's my best friend, and I wouldn't want to change him for the world. I love him so completely, and I know this makes me sound like a woman who is completely dependent on her boyfriend, but because of him I'm the happiest I have ever been in my life, and I believe I do the same for him. It's not me giving up being independent, it's just me realizing my other half and embracing that.

Today, I managed to finally get a job interview. Well, actually, it was a "pre-screening" interview, which turned out to be me showing my face and to make them know that I'm not a random homicidal maniac trying to take over their shop as a murder shack or something (yeah yeah, I know, all this introspective inspirational stuff before, and now I'm right back to being my weird self again. Well, this is my blog, and I'm allowed to speak of my feelings! so there!). Either way, even though it was the quickest thing ever, it was still my first kind of interview, and I'm proud of that. I've been really bummed lately because I've been trying to get a job for a year, and my sibling has had two (soon to be three). I don't know whether it's my resume or if they can sense that I'm a nervous wreck through my cover letter. I just really want a job so I can start to become independent from my parents and the rest of my family. I really, really want my own place - one that I can share with my boyfriend and my cat. To be honest, my family isn't a really close one. I used to be close with my brother, but then he all went and grew up, and now him and my sister are close because they like to talk about their parties and tv shows, and all I can talk to him about is games. I used to be close with my sister, but now I often feel like we hate each other. I didn't have a choice about living with her, but I accepted it. It's given me a roof over my head, and I'm thankful for that at least. We have our good times, but it's often roommate stuff that makes us fight rather than sister stuff I think. I think that when I get my own place, that hopefully we can become better sisters again... I really hope that's the case. I don't want to lose her, regardless of what's gone on in this past year, or the past 19 years before that. I'm 20 now, and I just want some normalcy. I love uniqueness, and I embrace the fact that I'm weird to some people, but sometimes I just want some stability in my life. I'm not going to talk about my mum and dad just now, simply because I don't feel like it.

So now here I am. I'm living with my sister and my cat, I have a boyfriend, I'm still job hunting, and because I'm pretty lazy sometimes I'm just getting by in school. I know it's not new years or anything, but I really want to start turning things around. I want to start getting fit, I want to be a better roommate, I want to find a job, and I want to continue improving my life and those who surround me. I need better grades, so that's one thing I need to deal with on my own.

Well... This is me.

Jobs, leftovers, and tattoos

Things have been pretty complacent these days. I haven't managed to get a job yet, so as such I haven't had moneyz to throw around and get Portal 2. This makes me sad, but I'll live. I'm just feeling pretty downtrodden about not getting a job yet. I haven't managed to get a job in over a year now, and each time I talk to my father about when I'm going to get a job, he just laughs and says I'm a lost cause. It's not like I haven't been trying; I've been plastering the town with resumes everywhere. I just wish I could make some money to start being independent from my parents.

Anyway, that's that. On other news, I made an awesome dinner last night! Those who know me don't really know of my cooking skills... mostly because I don't cook often at all. This time, I made penne arrabiata and roasted potatoes! It was awesome, and made for great leftovers for this morning. Mmmmm... leftovers.

This post isn't very fun, so I'm going to post a super cool picture!

You know, as soon as I get a job and get some money, I'm going to get that tattoo that I've always wanted. I want a small Stegosaurus tattoo on the inside of my hip, so that no one can see it (unless you're my boyfriend.. honhonhon!!), even if I'm wearing a bikini. I really want this tattoo, and I've wanted it for a while. The boyo doesn't really like tattooed femmes, but I've wanted a tattoo all my life, so he can just deal with it (SUCK IIITTT!!). 

Are there any tattoos you guys would like to share with me? Any ones that you've wanted or have seen that you love? Any ones that you actually have? I'd love to see all of them!

Beeeeeeer! Batmaaaann!!

Well now... I had an interesting time last night. It started off normal, playing a bit of Rock Band, and then heading over in a group of friends to another friends house to play beer pong. See, I've never played beer pong before, but it seemed like it would be a fun idea because me and my friend hadn't ever played before. It just turns out that I'm freaking awesome at it... mwahahaha!!

It's such a fun game! We all had such an awesome time playing, and I sunk at least 4 cups each time I was up. Oh, and I guess I haven't mentioned how ridiculously competitive I am about the most ridiculous things. This competitiveness has led me to yell "SUCK IT!" more than once to my boyfriend, who gets just as competitive as me sometimes. So it all just ended up being lewd victory dances and hip-thrusts whenever anyone at all managed to get a ball in a cup. Many curses were thrown about, and chugging was done by all. All in all, it was a sloshing good time!

Besides that, I am now alllmooostt finished Batman Arkham Asylum. I'm pretty much at the last boss battle. I'm hoping that there's a good free-play mode where I can just go around and get 100% completion, because if there's one thing that I love about this game, is that Edward Nigma (aka: The Riddler) leaves riddles around everywhere that you have to find the answer to. It's so much fun! However, if there's also one thing that I regret is that I've missed out on all of the beautiful and gorgeous graphics that the game has. It truly is an amazing looking game, with such beautiful artwork on the environments and characters, but I've spent most of it just making everything blue in detective mode.

Click to enlarge, because it's worth it to see properly

On the other hand, the detective mode is so useful, and is constructed in such a gorgeous way. The intricacy of this game in the graphics alone is astounding, and I absolutely love it. It's like it's the framework of everything around you, a blueprint of what makes the insanity of Arkham Asylum just pure lines. Other than the graphics, I love the actual gameplay and the storyline. It's so intriguing and interesting that I've just been playing it as much as I can. If you're into these sorts of action/adventure games, I suggest that you at least rent the game to get to play it. It's well worth it.

Also, if any of you were wondering, here's the site for the Portal 2 release countdown. Excite!

Portal 2 and Gears of War 3! *droooool*

So, I think this video by College Humor is worthwhile for anyone interested in Portal or the impending release of Portal 2 (SO EXCITED!! GRAAAGGHH!! It's so soon and so awesome! GLADOS!!! EXCLAMATION MARKS!)

Except the frakking video won't fit into the blog post borders and looks all stupid, and blogger is being silly because I can't find it on youtube, so I'm just going to post a link to it and hope you watch it... because it's funny.

Lazy guy with a portal gun - College Humor

Anyway! This is how excited I am for Portal 2:

WOAH!! Sorry, that's totally not me... Hang on, lemme find a proper picture.... Ah! Here we go:

OFUCK!! That's not me either! Oh man, I'm being so unprofessional right now, I'm sorry, I swear I'll find the right slide for the projector next time!

Either way, both of those Locusts look really happy and excited! So I'm guessing that you get the point by now, that I'm extremely excited about Portal 2 coming out  (can you tell yet that I'm excited about Gears of War 3 aswell?). It looks like Portal 2 is going to be a fantastic game. I know I enjoyed the 1st one so much that I just ended up finishing it within about a days (or two) worth of gameplay time. And then you know what I did? I freaking played it again. Right away. That's right, I forfeited being remotely like a normal human being who goes out and lives their lives for about a day or two, simply because I was hooked on Portal. I'm not proud of how quickly I can get sucked into a game, but at the same time... it was awesome.

In case you haven't seen a trailer yet, here's a Portal 2 Trailer:

Also, who's excited for Gears of War 3? The beta is out, and there have been masses of people on Twitter giving out VIP codes for GoW3, and I think they might still be doing them, so go out on twitter and just try and find the people who are. I haven't managed to get one, but it's aight. Not such a big deal to me about codes, I just want to play the game.

The multiplayer does look a lot better than 1 and 2, so I'm looking forward to that. Plus, the execution kills look absofuckinglutely AWESOME! If you haven't seen any trailers for it (or have been hiding under a rock lately), then here you go! The first link is better, in my opinion. Again, it's in link form because I can't find them on youtube (CURSES!)

Click here for awesomeness!

Awesomeness still continues!

Thoughts, anyone? Or if you just wanna post funny pictures of locusts, I'm very open to that too.

Games games games, and bridal week in NYC!

Yeah yeah yeah, I know it's been a day since I posted, but I think I've caught the blogging bug. Don't be surprised if I either leave blogging sporadically for a week or two, or if I spontaneously blog everyday. However, this bridal link is the cause of a blog post, because I think it's more worthy than just posting a tweet about it.

A warning though, this blog post lays heavily on gaming, so if you're here for just the bridal week in NYC link, it's in the paragraph underneath this one :D

It's bridal fashion week in NYC. OH MAN I want to be there! Can you imagine all of the dresses?! I would melt. It would just be so incredibly fashionable and pretty and ooooooh. Do any of you who are actually reading my blog have a favourite of the list? Or even a favourite dress that's not on that particular list? Post in the comments below! Mine is this one. It's so classy and beautiful:

On other news, according to gaming sources that I found on twitter (botchweed.com), there are rumors floating around about a Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3... Neither me or botchweed know if it is true. You know how it is about games, there are always hopeful rumors from fans and different sources. Personally, I love the MW series, and I wouldn't mind if they continued it, but after MW2 and Black Ops I'm not really sure if they'd be even making a new one. Then again, Halo have milked the game cow for as much as it can give and have made as many games and spinoffs they can. Has anyone played Halo Reach? Is it any good? I like the graphics of the Halo games, but I'm more of an RPG/adventure/batman player rather than FPS games. I like COD because they actually have pretty awesome story-lines.

I haven't found anything on Activision's site about a new game or rumors of a new game, but I'll try and keep up to date on that. However, gamespot have also heard of the rumors, and has an article here about it. It seems like this rumor mill is up and running pretty fast. It's hitting forums and people are confused, excited, or blatantly harsh about it. There have been people who are skeptical, and say that they really hope it doesn't just ruin the franchise. On the other hand, simply because the past couple of games have grossed such a vast amount of money, it's a pretty high possibility that infinityward/activision will want to continue the series. It doesn't stop there though; rumors have also been whispered around that the game won't follow the other modern warfare stories. If you ask me, it's pretty exciting that they're wanting to go in a different direction, regardless of if it works or backfires. I like it when gaming producers take risks.

Currently I'm playing the batman game, Arkham Asylum, and I must say that while it has pretty great graphics, and a pretty great story, it's really hard to resist just going around in detective mode the entire time. IT JUST GETS THINGS DONE SO EFFICIENTLY! At this point, I'm surprised Batman doesn't you know, just get shocked when he doesn't see blue or purple when he turns off the detective mode. It's ridiculous, and I feel like I'm cheating on the game, but it's works so well! I can't tell you how many times I've avoided the electric shock gates in the asylum because it pops up on detective mode as having a warning sign (yes, it is true, I'm not terribly observant in this game).

Another game that I really really can't wait to play is Bioshock Infinite, but it's current estimated release date is somewhere in 2012. Provided that the Mayans weren't right about you know, the end of the world, then it should be out then (disclaimer: I don't believe we're all going to go belly up in 2012, just so you know). It actually just seems like it would be great. If you've played Bioshock 1 and/or 2, then you'll probably be jonesing to play this too. It's been what seems quite a while since the trailer came out, but I'll post it here too, just because it's fantastical and awesome. I'll put links up for B-shock One and Two too, just so you guys have some idea of what's going on if you haven't played or seen them. I believe though, that B-shock Infinite isn't meant to be a prequel or a sequel, just simply in a different setting in a different time before all of B-Shock happened. I'm really interested to see what they've done with it all. I don't like looking at plot or gameplay trailers before playing a game, I just want to experience it.

Crayons, dinos, and cake

So I hung out with the boyo's family for most of yesterday. It was fun, yet odd. Each time I hang out with them, I realize more and more how comfortable a family is meant to be with each other. Either way, my family is nowhere near as comfortable together as my bf's family is. Ah well, each family is different, no two are the same, the grass is greener on the other side, <insert more clichéd sayings here>, if you feed a cold you'll have to starve a fever!?!?

Sorry, I got a bit carried away with sayings.

Anyway, that was endeavor was fun. His step-sis is young, and has met me maybe three times now, and as such, she became quite attached (you know how kids are with new people sometimes... I feel like a shiny new toy :D). The boyo, his sis, step-sis and I all drew on the table at the restaurant with crayons (though not to worry, there was paper on the table, as it was a dinner for after a footie tournament for under-13s), and I think we all did rather well. I'll upload my drawings down below. I was tasked to draw a Bulbasaur, but it's been a while since I collected pokemon cards and played the game, regardless of my nintendo DS and my two pokemon games on that. I haven't encountered a bulbasaur there, but I DID catch Lugia! Anyway, the point is, is that I was searching on google for what the hell it looks like, and I came across this:

Full pic of it here

How awesome is that?! I don't know who the artist is, but I'm loving the anatomical explanation of what a Bulbasaur is!

My drawings. The bulbasaur is up there by the salad, just click on the picture to enlarge it.

By the way, I'm posting this from my bed (as usual), on a sunday morning. So relaxing. Also, my bf is asleep, so I can girl out and look at sites concerning girly things... and also Cake Wrecks, which is an awesome site that can usually either provoke amazement, or hilarity. Every sunday they give a post of awesome cakes, instead of the usual wrecks. This sunday is one about tattooed cakes (awesome!), but previous sundays have had ones about wedding cakes.... and I loooove them. I just want them everyday of my life. So pretty. This is the one that I want on my wedding day:

Daisy cake (by Gail Watson over at Custom Cakes)

Wow, this post is pretty picture and link heavy, huh? I think I've been browsing the internet for too long this morning. I also need breakfast, but it might just be turning noon soon, so I guess it's brunch. I might poke the bf until he's awake, and suggest we go out for brunch... mmm... foooood.... *drool*

I have a twitter!

So I finally have a twitter. It's only taken about forever. Somehow I have some followers, and I'm not sure if they came from reading stuff over here, or if they just liked my profile pic of a dinosaur groom. Either way, thanks!

There will be random thoughts and lovely pics showing up on there. Obviously longer blog posts will be on here, and I'll try and update as often as I can (i.e.: whenever I have something actually interesting to say).

Anyway, my twitter is @lovelythingsare and you can find it here: http://twitter.com/#!/lovelythingsare
... because thingsarelovely was already taken D:

Birthdays, cake, and lots of booze.

So it turns out that I'm turning 20 in a couple of days. It's weird, moving from my teenage years into official adulthood. I'm a few months older than my boyfriend, so does that then mean that I'm accidentally cradle robbing? Maybe not, since he's 19 and all. I feel old. I'm one of the oldest of my friends, and I believe one of my bf's friends turned 20 in march, so he beat me to the chase. Usually, my birthdays aren't that terribly great, so I've come to look at them with a sort of apathy, but this time seems to be different. My bf and friends have already held me a surprise party, which was really quite awesome (lots of booze and ice cream cake... mmmm...), and then I'm going to have a nice birthday dinner with some of my friends on my actual birthday. Hopefully it will just be a nice chill day, maybe also with lots of booze, but i've got a final the next morning, so maybe just a bit of booze. I'll let you know.

Well, it's also the end of school and the start of finals week... Except I'm in university and it's a lot harder than finals in highschool. Once I've done these exams, I'll have finished my second year of uni and will be out looking for a job. I've sent out so many resumes and coverletters though, that it just seems a bit hopeless... especially since someone you know sends out two and gets the job a week later. While i'm congratulatory, I also say "poop" to that. Big stinking pile of poop.

Hopefully things will go alright in the coming weeks. I'm not going home over the summer, so we'll see how that will turn out.

No photomanipulations of dinosaurs in hats right now, so I'll just leave you with this random photo i found of a zombie hello kitty cake: