GADZOOKS, a post!!

Hmmm... It's been a while since my last post. To be honest, I kinda forgot that I even had a blog. These things slip my mind occasionally. I guess this post will be to update a bit, post a few pictures, and have a little fun :D

Well, I got a job as an ice cream counter attendant, but unfortunately, it only lasted a day because of the terrible experience I had with it. I started off pretty nervous, since I didn't have any training whatsoever, and was expecting my boss to come in to help me out a bit, since she said she would. She never showed up. I didn't even know how to open the cash register, because no one told me that it was basically a glorified cash box and all you had to do was poke one button to open it. I had to figure out the debit machine, which was pretty easy, but could have been bad. I didn't know how to properly make a milkshake, and was wary of the mixer. I didn't know which bottles of cleaning fluids to use, because there were five of them and none of them were labelled (I found out later that one of them was corrosive... Go figure. I'm glad I didn't use that one). It was a 7 hour CLOSING shift, and I didn't know how to close up the shop, so that was stressful, adding to the fact that my shift was from 6 PM till 1 AM, and ended up leaving at 2 AM. There wasn't a chair behind the till at all, so I was on my feet for 7 hours straight, and my back ended up being really sore. The next day, my wrist hurt like hell and I felt like I sprained it. It hurt picking anything up. I know some of these things don't sound bad, but you know how when a lot of little things pile up and end up just sucking big time? Yeah.. That was that. It was absolutely terrible. I NEVER thought I would be the kind of person to quit after one day, but honestly, it was ridiculous. I'm also not the kind of person who minds doing physical labour or anything of the sort - I would have been fine if I had training. The fact that she didn't come in to help out or give me any form of training was pretty horrible management, and somewhat disrespectful.

Anyway... Sunday rolled around and I was meant to have another closing shift that night. The previous shift left me in tears when I crawled into bed. I wasn't going to do this again, so I quit. At first, I was all "Yaayy! I got a job! In ice cream! Best summer job ever!" and then I was like "Yaaay! I quit my job! Worst job ever!"... Well, I guess now that I've had the worst day ever, I can move on to other pursuits and deal with the rest of life.

Hmmm... What else... I went to a costume party that weekend, and dressed up as Katarina from League of Legends. I wish I had taken a picture of it, because it was pretty dang awesome. I even drew the scar on, and made throwing knives out of tinfoil and cardboard :D One of my boyo's friends got a wee bit drunk and said "Is it weird I think you're hotter as Katarina? I want you to have that cool scar forever." and then I feared for my life. Just kidding, he's an odd ball, but he's lovely. I left the throwing knives at my boyo's place, but I really hope he kept them. They were taped to a couple of belts that went around my legs. I hope I can get them back so I can dress up again and take a pic, because I really want to. I might end up just recycling it for halloween, but then again, I also might be Polywhirl for halloween. I can't decide. In case you haven't realized, I really like dressing up. It's super fun making costumes. I'd love to go to a con at some point in my life, but I feel like I'd need to step up my costume making skills. Maybe I can take a sewing workshop and buy a sewing machine so I can do it up :) That's a pretty exciting idea (I know, it's not really exciting for most people. Shhh).

My goals for the rest of this summer are: draw more, knit dinosaur toys, finish knitting gryffindor scarves, cook more, and finally play more FPS games so I can actually be good at them.

OH, hey, I started eating meat again (well, beef, chicken, turkey, bacon... everything but fish, since I was eating fish anyway), and to start off my foray into meat again after 10 years of being pescatarian, I made shepherd's pie and nommed out on it. I originally made it for my sis, her bf, and my friend, but I decided to finally partake. Here's a picture of it :3 It was delicious. It was also my first time actually cooking meat, and it worked out really well! I'm pretty happy with it.

Since then, I've just dived back into eating meat. It's freaking delicious. The only reason why I didn't eat meat before is because I was grossed out by it following biting into a mcdonalds burger and finding a vein popping out. Before that, I had been vegitarian for a few months, and was swindled back by my mother making chicken nuggets, which are my favourite things ever. Then, I was vegetarian for a while, and my parents decided I had to eat fish, so I did (reluctantly)... I don't eat fish often because it's not my favourite thing (unless it's in Sushi... mmmmmmm), but anyway. And now, 10 years later, I am eating meat again... IT'S SO DELICIOUS. Bacon and turkey are my new favourite things. I think I may like turkey better than chicken, believe it or not. I had my first ever chicken wing a couple of days ago, which was yummy and exciting... I ate it off the bone and everything!

Well, I think that's it for now. I'll update more if I think of anything. For now, I need to go take out the trash and go to the gym. Seeyah!

Memories from childhood, sushi, and fries

My sis just reminded me about how we used to go to swim practice when we were young, and afterwards we would have magnum icecream and thick delicious fires with mayo and shirley temples (non-alkie, of course... my parent's weren't THAT ridiculous). It was such an awesome memory; the random meal was always such a great reward after swim team practice. It was actually just the best thing ever after swimming for an hour as a kid... It would fill your belly with cold and warmth and deliciousness and mmmmmmmmm.

Mmmmmmm..... Friiieeesss...

Come to think of it, a lot of memories centre around food for me, which kinda makes sense considering the person I am... I mean come on, I would be obese if I didn't have a great metabolism. I'm 53 kg (117 lb i think, according to the scales at the gym), and I'm about 5'4", and I love food. I love food SO MUCH. It's one of my favourite things ever (regardless of the fact that I need to eat in order to survive). I love trying out foods and finding delicious flavours, and I kind of miss eating meat - I'm a pescatarian, which is a vegetarian that eats fish sometimes... I'm slightly anemic, so I need something - because of the delightful aromas that comes from meat dishes that I've been smelling over the last 9 years of pescatarianism. I've been tempted to go back to chicken, because chicken was my favourite thing back in the day. I actually tried vegetarianism for a couple of months before I ended up being tempted by chicken nuggets that my mum used to make that were always yummy. I was veggie for a couple of years, until my parents decided that me not eating any sort of meat was bad for my health, even though I didn't like fish back in the day. Now, I eat sushi, which I can't believe I like, because I used to really not like fish at all.

My faves are Dynamite Rolls and California Rolls <3

Anyway. Most of my childhood memories probably revolve around delicious food. It's true. I just love food. I love trying new restaurants, even though back in the day I had the worst luck with restaurants when me and my family went out together. I used to order things that sounded great, but then would just be terrible in that particular instance, but everyone else would be enjoying their meals and I would have to just sit there and push food around because I was a picky eater. However, that's turned around as I moved away from home. Now, I'm the one that gets the awesome meals, and my family leave the place feeling unsatisfied. I just look at it as payback for the years of sad face tiemz at restaurants in my youth and most of my teen years.

If anyone actually reads this blog, what do most of your childhood memories revolve around? Is there a theme that you find prominent or that you remember most because of it's recurring status? I'd love to hear about it... Seriously! Leave a comment, guys!

The huntress stalks the job interviews in the night...

So this past weekend has been pretty great. My boyo came back to visit for the weekend, and while I had planned a romantic picnic to be had in a park, it didn't happen. Instead, we played beer pong with one of my good friends, and spent most of that night having pizza, watching south park, and then ending up puking. Other than that, we cuddled a bunch and played League of Legends (I like to lane with him :3). Ooh, and we also had a bubble bath! It was vanilla birthday cake scented and yummy smelling :D. We spent a lot of the time just cuddling and hanging out, because that's what we do and I'm addicted to being comfy while being in his arms, so go figure. We're kinda a low key couple. We like to cuddle and just hang out. It's mostly hanging out rather than going out, which I'm fine with. It kinda feels like we're supposed to be living together already. We've talked about it, but it's not feasible until we both get jobs and support ourselves. It'll happen at some point; probably after my sis moves away and I'll have to get a different apartment because it wouldn't make sense to still have two bedrooms.

Anyway, he had to go home this afternoon, but it was okay because I had a job interview today. I think it went well, but I only had one reference, so we'll have to see how that goes; never mind the fact that the referent isn't in the country. It was my first interview ever, but I still think it went really well. I just tried to act normal for once and be personable, and I think it worked out. They said they'd let me know about it within a week, so that will be good. Apparently, because it's a home depot, I would have to wear steel-toe shoes for safety, which I'm fine with... It just means that I'm going to have to go out and buy some steel-toe shoes if I actually get the job. Either way, if I don't get the job, at least now I've had an experience with an interview, and it was a good way of learning how to deal with my nerves in that situation. The person was really nice and she put me at ease, so that was good. It made it a lot easier to answer her questions anyway. I really wouldn't mind working there... It's such a relaxed atmosphere. Very welcoming.

It's been a pretty eventful few days for me. I got a call from Ardene earlier today about setting up an interview, but my phone kept cutting out. The person said they were going to call me back in 10 minutes (after the call), but they never did, so that was a bit sad. It was a blocked number too, so I couldn't just call back. They didn't give their name or tell me from which store they were calling from so that I could find a way to contact them again. It's really frustrating when that happens, because I really just want to get a job. I hope they call me tomorrow, otherwise I'm just going to have to call each store that I applied to online to see if they have a job opening. The funny thing is, is that I applied to Ardene and Home Depot as a whim sort of thing, just to apply because I really need a job and while I hadn't heard of any job openings, I thought it was a good idea anyway... Go figure! Anyway. I hope ardene calls me back. I would like to have options, and just maybe flaunt it and gloat to my parents that I can do something on my own, even though they think that I can't.

So anyway. I hope everything ends up good. I feel like I should call the art gallery back, and see whether they've processed my resume and if they're willing to set up an interview, but I'm pretty sure that if they wanted me they would have contacted me... Then again, everything works slow in this area.

On another note, I've been sucking really bad at League of Legends lately. REALLY bad. I've just not been having good games at all. I think I fell into complacency with the Coop-vs-ai mode, because it's easier to deal with and way more casual. It's also just a really easy game mode. I think I need to get better at this game if I'm going to keep playing with my bf and friends. My bf and his friend are lvl 20/30. I'm lvl 13. I'd love to just spend the entire day and night playing, but it's just going to annoy my sis with all of the incessant clicking of my mouse. I'm usually always playing as Annie. I used to be pretty great at using her, but now it seems like I've forgotten. I love playing as Annie. I love Tibbers. He's cute and cuddly X3 <3 I think I might end up dressing up as her for halloween this year. If I do, I promise I'll take pictures! I hope I can get a pink wig to wear. I would love to chop and dye my hair pink, but somehow I don't think that would go over well with the boyo. I personally would feel the obligation to dress like a superhero every day that I have pink hair, but hey. I kinda really want to chop all my hair really short... As in below my chin short, but above my shoulders. I've been growing my hair for a couple of years now, but I got it cut recently. It's now just by my chest instead of being down my ribs. Anyway.

You wanna play too? It'll be fun!

It's 2.41 AM now, and I'm getting a bit sleepy, so I think I'mma have to head to sleep. Good night/morning, all! Have a good sleep and all that jazz.

Trying out different blogs!

I'm always trying out new places to blog, so just so you guys know that if I find a better place to blog, I will let you guys know. Right now I'm checking out tumblr, which seems really nice! I really like the themes, and that always appeals to me when choosing a blogging place. I also really like how free it seems, in that it doesn't matter if you don't just give large blogs, or if you just wanna post random pictures.

So yeah, I'll let you guys know! If you're interested, my tumblr link is to the right, in the new links section.

If you guys have any other places you like to blog on, and would like to suggest any, please comment!

"I love you Beth Cooper" makes me introspective?

Just so you know, I probably won't have many posts like this.

You know, watching movies like "I love you Beth Cooper" and other high school movies just makes me reflect on my life. It's not exactly the type of movie you'd normally think would make you reflect on your own life, but I've been pretty retrospective and introspective these days. My highschool years were pretty... bleak. I was painfully shy and was picked on quite a bit until my last couple of years there. My last couple of years were alright; I had a group of good friends, I came out of my shell through sheer will, and I started playing around with makeup and hairstyles (finally). I started to find out who I was, what I liked about myself rather than what I just didn't like about myself. I started to find things in the world that I enjoyed, people that I liked to have in my life, people that I just couldn't stand to have in my life, and I just... stopped needing to please everyone around me.

Then came Uni. I went into dorms and had to force myself to make friends. I'm in my second year now (well, just finished it), and I'm still friends with some of those people. Some friends I fell out with, after finding out they were just using me. I've made a couple of other friends through my friends, though I still have a complex about how many friends I have. When I hang out with some people that I really want to be better friends with, I try really hard not to be boring, or I'm really worried through the hangout that I might be boring them. I'm trying really hard to break out of that habit, because I'm really proud of who I've become, even though I still have some improving to do. I got to meet the love of my life, my boyfriend (who I asked out! Can you believe it?),  who I plan to stay with for the rest of my life, so I count that as a plus! He was the man who helped me become who I am today. He's my best friend, and I wouldn't want to change him for the world. I love him so completely, and I know this makes me sound like a woman who is completely dependent on her boyfriend, but because of him I'm the happiest I have ever been in my life, and I believe I do the same for him. It's not me giving up being independent, it's just me realizing my other half and embracing that.

Today, I managed to finally get a job interview. Well, actually, it was a "pre-screening" interview, which turned out to be me showing my face and to make them know that I'm not a random homicidal maniac trying to take over their shop as a murder shack or something (yeah yeah, I know, all this introspective inspirational stuff before, and now I'm right back to being my weird self again. Well, this is my blog, and I'm allowed to speak of my feelings! so there!). Either way, even though it was the quickest thing ever, it was still my first kind of interview, and I'm proud of that. I've been really bummed lately because I've been trying to get a job for a year, and my sibling has had two (soon to be three). I don't know whether it's my resume or if they can sense that I'm a nervous wreck through my cover letter. I just really want a job so I can start to become independent from my parents and the rest of my family. I really, really want my own place - one that I can share with my boyfriend and my cat. To be honest, my family isn't a really close one. I used to be close with my brother, but then he all went and grew up, and now him and my sister are close because they like to talk about their parties and tv shows, and all I can talk to him about is games. I used to be close with my sister, but now I often feel like we hate each other. I didn't have a choice about living with her, but I accepted it. It's given me a roof over my head, and I'm thankful for that at least. We have our good times, but it's often roommate stuff that makes us fight rather than sister stuff I think. I think that when I get my own place, that hopefully we can become better sisters again... I really hope that's the case. I don't want to lose her, regardless of what's gone on in this past year, or the past 19 years before that. I'm 20 now, and I just want some normalcy. I love uniqueness, and I embrace the fact that I'm weird to some people, but sometimes I just want some stability in my life. I'm not going to talk about my mum and dad just now, simply because I don't feel like it.

So now here I am. I'm living with my sister and my cat, I have a boyfriend, I'm still job hunting, and because I'm pretty lazy sometimes I'm just getting by in school. I know it's not new years or anything, but I really want to start turning things around. I want to start getting fit, I want to be a better roommate, I want to find a job, and I want to continue improving my life and those who surround me. I need better grades, so that's one thing I need to deal with on my own.

Well... This is me.

Jobs, leftovers, and tattoos

Things have been pretty complacent these days. I haven't managed to get a job yet, so as such I haven't had moneyz to throw around and get Portal 2. This makes me sad, but I'll live. I'm just feeling pretty downtrodden about not getting a job yet. I haven't managed to get a job in over a year now, and each time I talk to my father about when I'm going to get a job, he just laughs and says I'm a lost cause. It's not like I haven't been trying; I've been plastering the town with resumes everywhere. I just wish I could make some money to start being independent from my parents.

Anyway, that's that. On other news, I made an awesome dinner last night! Those who know me don't really know of my cooking skills... mostly because I don't cook often at all. This time, I made penne arrabiata and roasted potatoes! It was awesome, and made for great leftovers for this morning. Mmmmm... leftovers.

This post isn't very fun, so I'm going to post a super cool picture!

You know, as soon as I get a job and get some money, I'm going to get that tattoo that I've always wanted. I want a small Stegosaurus tattoo on the inside of my hip, so that no one can see it (unless you're my boyfriend.. honhonhon!!), even if I'm wearing a bikini. I really want this tattoo, and I've wanted it for a while. The boyo doesn't really like tattooed femmes, but I've wanted a tattoo all my life, so he can just deal with it (SUCK IIITTT!!). 

Are there any tattoos you guys would like to share with me? Any ones that you've wanted or have seen that you love? Any ones that you actually have? I'd love to see all of them!

Beeeeeeer! Batmaaaann!!

Well now... I had an interesting time last night. It started off normal, playing a bit of Rock Band, and then heading over in a group of friends to another friends house to play beer pong. See, I've never played beer pong before, but it seemed like it would be a fun idea because me and my friend hadn't ever played before. It just turns out that I'm freaking awesome at it... mwahahaha!!

It's such a fun game! We all had such an awesome time playing, and I sunk at least 4 cups each time I was up. Oh, and I guess I haven't mentioned how ridiculously competitive I am about the most ridiculous things. This competitiveness has led me to yell "SUCK IT!" more than once to my boyfriend, who gets just as competitive as me sometimes. So it all just ended up being lewd victory dances and hip-thrusts whenever anyone at all managed to get a ball in a cup. Many curses were thrown about, and chugging was done by all. All in all, it was a sloshing good time!

Besides that, I am now alllmooostt finished Batman Arkham Asylum. I'm pretty much at the last boss battle. I'm hoping that there's a good free-play mode where I can just go around and get 100% completion, because if there's one thing that I love about this game, is that Edward Nigma (aka: The Riddler) leaves riddles around everywhere that you have to find the answer to. It's so much fun! However, if there's also one thing that I regret is that I've missed out on all of the beautiful and gorgeous graphics that the game has. It truly is an amazing looking game, with such beautiful artwork on the environments and characters, but I've spent most of it just making everything blue in detective mode.

Click to enlarge, because it's worth it to see properly

On the other hand, the detective mode is so useful, and is constructed in such a gorgeous way. The intricacy of this game in the graphics alone is astounding, and I absolutely love it. It's like it's the framework of everything around you, a blueprint of what makes the insanity of Arkham Asylum just pure lines. Other than the graphics, I love the actual gameplay and the storyline. It's so intriguing and interesting that I've just been playing it as much as I can. If you're into these sorts of action/adventure games, I suggest that you at least rent the game to get to play it. It's well worth it.

Also, if any of you were wondering, here's the site for the Portal 2 release countdown. Excite!